So May didn’t suck as much as April, but it still wasn’t great.
Things have definitely calmed down emotionally since April. On the whole, I’m way more evened out now. Unfortunately, I didn’t really do anything last month. I got the tiniest bit of work done on Not Alone 3, and I did plan out the next part of The DOOM Chronicles, but that’s about it.
I’m in a weird place again at the moment. Part of it is I’m just burned the fuck out on The DOOM Chronicles. After two years, I’m just burned out on DOOM and Halo. I want to do something else. Something like Half-Life or StarFox or basically anything else. I don’t know if this is a good idea or not. I’ve been here before and usually if I wait long enough it passes, but it’s been getting worse lately. I’ve taken several long breaks from DOOM during this Episode. Although to be fair to me, it is by far the longest episode of the series.
For reference, upon completion, Episode One measured approximately 158,000 words. Episode Three presently sits at 116,000 words and it’s only halfway done. So…yeah. Massive undertaking.
So I’m very strongly considering taking a longer break now that we’re at the halfway mark. Which I’d feel really bad about, but I’m beginning to get the impression that it’s going to need a long break regardless and I’m just lying to myself that I can go back to it right now.
I’m currently eyeing a few projects in place of DOOM. Nerves of Steele would be my number one candidate. I know I said I was tired of Halo, but I NEED to make some progress there, and it’s been long enough that I’m wanting to. And I believe that my brain registers enough of a distinction between The Will To Live and Nerves of Steele for the burnout of The Will To Live not to apply to Nerves of Steele. I’m also strongly considering firing up the sequel to Bishop’s War, Bishop’s Lament. I’m also very strongly considering taking a crack at my ultimate StarFox fan fiction, Obsidian Sun Rising. Last on the list of strong considerations is basically CoD: Infinite Warfare zombies. I’ve got a really cool idea that would be so awesome, but it’s more of a gamble than the other three.
I don’t know, I’m just fucking DYING to write something new. It’s not that I hate DOOM now, DOOM’s still a classic and I love it, I just…am tired of it. Too much DOOM recently.
We’ll see. I need more time to let my mind settle and heal up a bit, and then I can make a decision. Sorry about all this.